Just Hold On

As I have mentioned in the past few posts....I have been struggling with my weight loss.  I am still working on on it but this week I have really been trying to put new things in place to help me.  There is a book...."A Million Little Pieces" This book was one of the Oprah books.  I admit that I usually love all things Oprah...except her book selections!  Well this book was about a guy who was overcoming addiction.  It came out later that he made up a good part of this story...blah blah blah.  I still got a lot out of the book.  I can recognize that my relationship with food is not different from an addict to Heroine....except mine is much more socially acceptable.  

In this book James has a phrase he says when he is Jonesing for drugs....He just keeps saying "just hold on" and he knows the strong desire for drugs will pass.  This has been something that I have used in the past in attempts to lose weight.  I have not really used it this time....til now.  Last week I felt I needed a phrase to say.  I was talking to my friend Lance and he reminded me of how powerful I felt this phrase was in the past.  I suddenly had my phrase.  JUST HOLD ON!  I had a silver bracelet made with it on it and have been wearing it since I got it.

I had a hard time getting a good picture of the bracelet but you get the idea.  Just Hold on!

Murn

one day at a time

I worked today but I had in my mind that I was going to go to the gym after work.  After working 12 hours I must say the last thing I wanted to do tonight was go to the gym....but I did....because I am committed to continuing this journey.  It was not a pretty or easy work out but I did it.  I did not eat perfect today but I journaled everything I ate.  I was a few points over but I earned 9 exercise points so I was in my points.

On a funny note....tonight on the treadmill (aka torture machine) the guy next to me was a young guy who appeared to be in good shape.  Here is the thing....he grunted and moaned the whole time he was on the treadmill!  It was so annoying!!!  I kept thinking....shut up!  I am killing myself over here and you don't hear me grunting loudly!  Just then the song "Shut Up" came on my Ipod by the Black Eyed Peas.  I chucked out loud and then thought of him the whole time it played.  Somehow that made it all ok.  :)

One day at a time.  I am not sure why this is so hard for me to get a handle on.  I guess some days I have to take it a minute at a time.

Murn

Pizza Weight Watchers style!

I am feeling really good about my recommitment.  I work up today feeling a sense of relief.  Yesterday I really worked on thinking about my weight loss.  I watched Ruby and the biggest loser.  I read tons of weight loss blogs.  Just had to get my head back into it.  More importantly I stuck to my plan.  I swam a mile and ate in my points.  

I love pizza!  I am a little tired of Lean cusine pizzas so I have been trying to come up with one I can make myself.  Here is what I have come up with....and it is not too bad!

Take one Light Italian Flatout (2 pts)

Spread some pizza sauce on it (1 pt)

2 servings of 2% mozzarella cheese (4pts) 

Pile on the veggies (I didnt have any to pile on!)

 Bake at 400 til golden brown and you have.....

YUMM-O!
Murn

recommitment

I went back to WW today.  My weight is up....a good bit!  I was 198.0 today.  I am not happy about it.  Oprah had people that were on a weigh loss journey before sign a contract with themselves.  I am doing that with myself.  I am getting back to the basics.  I have gotten sloppy and thought I had a handle on this weight loss thing.  Not the case!

*I will not go out for fast food with the exception of Subway.

*I will track my points every day.  

*I will stay in my points for the day.

*I will track my exercise again on a calendar so I can see what I have been doing for the week.  

*I will not binge eat late in the evening.
*I will weigh in at WW every week.

I have a reward that I get an Ipad for my 100lbs reward.  I can get there and I know I will like my body much better when I get there.  100lbs will be when I get to 171.8.
I am not done.....
Murn

quick

This has to be quick as I am heading out the door but many of you have been telling me you have been noticing that I have not been blogging.....so I am trying to do better.

Vegas was fantastic.  I will do more on that soon.  Since getting home I have really been trying to eat back on plan.  I do fine til night comes....then I blow it all to hell.  Today the plan is to go to SF with friends.  We are going to go on a walk then eat at my favorite place....the grove.  I am already craving their salad which I think is pretty healthy except the cheese on it.  Why has this gotten so much harder?

Murn

Introducing my new best friend Dory!

In my family we rotate through each sibling.  This year my older brother had me.  He knows how I have been running.  He gave me a new garmin!  It does amazing things!  

I thought long and hard about her name.  I have settled on Dory from Finding Nemo.   "Just keep swimming (running)" seems like a good motto for me.  Dory was also always lost.  :)

Here is a glimpse at what Dory does for me....

Untitled by megrover6 at Garmin Connect - Details

I need to admit that I didnt run for almost 2 weeks.  I am back on track with it.  I have run 3 times this week so far.  Tonight I ran 5 miles.  The first mile was my fastest ever....11 min mile.  The 2nd mile.....well it sucked!  I had a terrible cramp in my abdomen.  Then miles 3-4 were pretty effortless.  About halfway through mile 5 I was ready to be done.
Murn

where in the world have I been?

I am here!  I promise!  Life is busy I guess is all I can say.  When I got home from Minnesota I had all of my life waiting for me!  One of the things I did was go on a girls trip to Santa Cruz.  I was not there as much as I had hoped but when I was there....it was great.  We had the most spectacular view of the ocean.

 Here we are at family dinner one night.  Amelia is missing from the picture.

I had to go home early because my little Sophie dog was attacked by bigger dog and her leg got broken. Poor thing is already afraid of other dogs and this did not help.  She is doing ok now but was pretty pathetic for a few days.
I have been fluctuating a little bit with my weight loss but mostly staying the same.  This weekend I am going to Vegas and then I am getting serious about losing.  :)

Hope you are having a great winter!
Murn